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I ponder on a thought
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I ponder on a thought a moment of my soul weakening

a thought that comes so eagerly in the mind of a walking babe 

I have no moment of clarity or a thought that mite bring me to my self

and so my moment goes on leaving nothing in it's place 

I have this felling of a black hole a peering but in the end when I thought it was to 

devour me I find it was not it was just

The End 

Some of my favorite quotes by The Buddha
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The Buddha

Your worst enemy cannot harm you as much 
as your own unguarded thoughts.

Develop the mind of equilibrium.
You will always be getting praise and blame,
but do not let either affect the poise of the mind:
follow the calmness, the absence of pride.
Sutta Nipata

One day Ananda, who had been thinking deeply about things for a while, turned to the Buddha and exclaimed: 
"Lord, I've been thinking- spiritual friendship is at least half of the spiritual life!" 
The Buddha replied: "Say not so, Ananda, say not so. Spiritual friendship is the whole of the spiritual life!"
Samyutta Nikaya, Verse 2

In what is seen, there should be just the seen; 
In what is heard, there should be just the heard; 
In what is sensed, there should be just the sensed; 
In what is thought, there should be just the thought. 

He should not kill a living being, nor cause it to be killed, nor should he incite another to kill.
Do not injure any being, either strong or weak in the world.
Sutta Nipata II,14

These teachings are like a raft, to be abandoned once you have crossed the flood. 
Since you should abandon even good states of mind generated by these teachings, 
How much more so should you abandon bad states of mind! 

Conquer the angry man by love. 
Conquer the ill-natured man by goodness. 
Conquer the miser with generosity. 
Conquer the liar with truth. 
The Dhammapada

In Aryans' Discipline, to build a friendship is to build wealth,
To maintain a friendship is to maintain wealth and
To end a friendship is to end wealth.
Cakkavatti Sutta, Patika Vagga, Dighanikaya

"If beings knew, as I know, the results of sharing gifts, they would not enjoy their gifts without sharing them with others, nor would the taint of stinginess obsess the heart and stay there. even if it were their last and final bit of food, they would not enjoy its use without sharing it, if there were anyone to receive it"
Itivuttaka 18

One should follow a man of wisdom who rebukes one for one's faults, as one would follow a guide to some buried treasure. 
To one who follows such a wise man, it will be an advantage and not a disadvantage.
Dhammapada 76

A brahmin once asked The Blessed One:
"Are you a God?"
"No, brahmin" said The Blessed One.
"Are you a saint?"
"No, brahmin" said The Blessed One.
"Are you a magician?"
"No, brahmin" said The Blessed One.
"What are you then?"
"I am awake."

See the truth, and you will see me.

Let your love flow outward through the universe,
To its height, its depth, its broad extent,
A limitless love, without hatred or enmity.
Then as you stand or walk,
Sit or lie down,
As long as you are awake,
Strive for this with a one-pointed mind;
Your life will bring heaven to earth. 
Sutta Nipata

Thousands of candles can be lit from a single candle, 
and the life of the candle will not be shortened.
Happiness never decreases by being shared.

I teach one thing and one only: 
that is, suffering and the end of suffering.

Just as a mother would protect with her life her own son, her only son,
so one should cultivate an unbounded mind towards all beings, and loving-kindness towards all the world.
One should cultivate an unbounded mind, above and below and across, without obstruction, without enmity, without rivalry.
Standing, or going, or seated, or lying down, as long as one is free from drowsiness, one should practice this mindfulness. 
This, they say, is the holy state here.
Sutta Nipata

What is this world condition?
Body is the world condition. 
And with body and form goes feeling, perception, consciousness, and all the activities throughout the world.
The arising of form and the ceasing of form--everything that has been heard, sensed, and known, sought after and reached by the mind--all this is the embodied world, to be penetrated and realized.
Samyutta Nikaya

Make an island of yourself,
make yourself your refuge;
there is no other refuge.
Make truth your island,
make truth your refuge;
there is no other refuge.
Digha Nikaya, 16

Solitude is happiness for one who is content, who has heard the Dhamma and clearly sees.
Non-affliction is happiness in the world - harmlessness towards all living beings.
Udana 10

The fool thinks he has won a battle when he bullies with harsh speech,
but knowing how to be forbearing alone makes one victorious.
Samyutta Nikaya I, 163

Things are not what they appear to be: nor are they otherwise.
Surangama Sutra

Do not pursue the past.
Do not lose yourself in the future.
The past no longer is.
The future has not yet come.
Looking deeply at life as it is.
In the very here and now, the practitioner dwells in stability and freedom.
We must be diligent today.
To wait until tomorrow is too late.
Death comes unexpectedly.
How can we bargain with it?
The sage calls a person who knows how to dwell in mindfulness night and day,
'one who knows the better way to live alone.'
Bhaddekaratta Sutta


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About Predatory Vampyrism and other occasions Posted by Founding Father J P Vanir on July 7, 2011
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About Predatory Vampyrism and other occasions


I have been shot down on several occasions because of my predatory Vampyrism beliefs however if you hunt for your food you are a predator; so it is not always an evil to be a predator. Whether you kill what you hunt or just go out to gather energy it is predatory. I have also been accused of being overly egotistical as a Vampyr because of my belief that we are above humans on the food chain because we feed on them. However I do not think we are top of the food chain as there is not top of the food chain; something always feeds on something else. I know there are creatures above us especially since we are still also human higher spirits (even the pure Vampyr Spirits) could easily feed on us. At least I and most in the community DO NOT kill and completely devour or prey! We only use what we need and they usually do not not notice as I am not one to hurt anyone. 

© Father JP Vanir



Interrupted Tantric Astral Feeding... Posted by Founding Father J P Vanir on June 10, 2011
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Interrupted Tantric Astral Feeding...


I was woke up this late morning with hard on and completely out of it for a good hour but yet my yet my energy was higher then normal. This is when you know you you have had Interrupted Tantric Astral Feeding and it sucks to have that Interrupted LOL. This is the second time this month this has happened but at least I felt the good feeding after so maybe it is not such a bad thing?


Drama book (facebook) is taking over the world Posted by Founding Father J P Vanir on May 2, 2011
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Drama book (Facebook) is taking over the world

As most know I am pretty anti-Facebook and I only have an account there to keep up with the world and its demands. However to me Facebook should be renamed DRAMA BOOK (as I have deemed it) as that all I seem to find there; along with fighting, bickering, name calling, fighting, and bashing ect (not to mention a large number of pedophiles). I honestly do not understand why it is so popular? I guess because it is simple (except on editing your privacy settings and such; as it is not safe or private at all) and user friendly maybe? The biggest thing I hate is they FORCE you to use your real birth name though some have fooled them they wont let me get away with it; now my family will find every thing about me I wanted to keep from them; luckily only my brother has found me so far but thats bad enough.


Humans and all life forms are parasitic by nature. Posted by Founding Father J P Vanir on January 10, 2011
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Humans and all life forms are parasitic by nature.

Humans and all life forms are parasitic by nature.

As babies we take food, life, and our mother’s energy to live. When we all first start out this is how are life begins and even after that we all most kill something to live be it plant or animal but yet we as Vampires are called the parasites and leaches? Gives you something to think about?


© Founding Father J P Vanir   



The Vampyr (otherkin) condition and why they think we are schizophrenic? Posted by Founding Father J P Vanir on January 10, 2011
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The Vampyr (otherkin) condition and why they think we are schizophrenic?


I have been doing a lot of thinking about Human Vampyrism and my beliefs about what we are (as usual). Since we are a form of OtherKin as well as Human It makes since to why many psychologists want to label us as schizophrenic as well as bipolar because of mood changes due to feeding too much or not enough. I am by no means saying ALL Vampyres are mentally insane or anything it just shows me how they can assume these things because of our condition. Just a thought I had today, perhaps more to come…


© Founding Father J P Vanir  



Dark Mother Lilith Posted by Founding Father J P Vanir on May 10, 2008
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Dark Mother Layla (Lilitu or Lilith) 

Dark Mother Layla

Layla, mother of darkness and sexuality (fertility)…
Open my mind to your thoughts and bring me closer to thee…

Lilitu, Goddess, Succubus, and Vampyr queen…
Make your self known to us…

Layla, Dominating feminine one come to us this night and
Aid us in giving us our will and your sight…

© Founding Father J P Vanir Of TempleUVUP



Prayer to Layla... 

Lilitu..whose father art Anu...
whose children are swept away
in the wings of Death every night...
Lilitu... polluted art thou sayeth blasphemous lips
that wouldst dare speak against thee...
but they have not been enlightened with thine understandings...
they canst not see the purity in such unclean things...
and so thy teachings are denied them...
Oh Lilitu! I come to thee now... a babe in thy arms...
I am open to thee, for thou hast shown thyself to me thusly...
open unto me the doors within mineself, that shalt free this one, from those inhibitions that bind me...
show me that which layeth within; undiscovered...
free this one from the boundaries of mine own confinement...
this I beg you Lilitu!

- © written by Tyennius Dycanthe (Rev Samilyn) April 22nd, 2008


~Awaitingly I sit here longing for you~
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I'm looking toward the sky,

wandering if you see what I see.

A vast empty night because your not here beside me.

I Summon Thee my Incubus twin flame,

Hear the beat of my heavy heart.

Come to me my Incubus,

Look into my eyes.

See me my Incubus,

See my lonely soul that lies deep within.

I've fallen into your eyes,

Your soul holds me captive again.

I have waited for you,

Longing for you to notice me.

Allow me to place my arms around you,

As I kiss your lips with all my love.

Hoping you return my kiss willingly

Protecting me from being alone.

Your admirer from a distance

That's what I am

I wait for you,

as vulnerable as a lamb.

I long for your passion,

Wrap me in it's sweet hold.

Your arms, they will melt away this lonely cold.

In every poem I've ever written,

I'm always thinking you my love.

And hoping that you are happy,

Even though you are distance from me.

So much love I have to offer you,

You have only but to ask to feel it too.

Please come back to me, the one I once knew,

My Incubus, My dark, sweet one,

Please rescue me soon.

Angie AKA Mydarkest1



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